Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

I found out that I got accepted to the University here yesterday (woohoo!)....so my kiddos and I celebrated by going to see the GreenShow, which is a pre-show to the plays that run all summer as part of the Utah Shakespearean Festival. Its a fun show that we love attending. Anyway....after the show the boys always want to play in the fountain so away we went. I was trying to get a good picture of them (just them) and some random dude was all "You should be in that picture too!" I politely tried to say no thanks and I was ok...but he seriously was dead set that I would be in the dang picture. So I gave in. Now...I'm happy I did because It showed me that I'm lookin like a fatty bo batty still and need to get my butt moving. Now I just need to remember that when I'm feelin too lazy to run at night.......

I've been on a hiatus....

....and I apologize. Its been a rough time. My will and power to get this weight loss stuff going was shot. I had semi-given up for a minute. But now I'm back. Starting fresh....and taking it slow. Going day by day and hoping I can get things done. This weekend I didn't participate in the weigh in due to having a sleepover situation going on at my house and I couldn't get away. But I think it would've been bad anyway. This week.. I take things day by day. And hopefully I will get back into my groove. As a make up...here is a current picture of me. Even though I'm frustrated with my progress, I can see a difference. I still have the love handles but my upper torso is slimming out I think. Its good to see this for me. It shows I'm making progress. Here is to a good day today. And tomorrow....

Losing Motivation

I've come to a point where I'm losing my motivation. I truly am. I miss eating like crap. I miss not having to exercise. I want to be able to do all the things that encourage weight gain....without gaining weight. I'm frustrated. I don't know what to do. Take that back I do know what I need to do, I just don't want to do it. I've barely exercised this week and I've used 40 of my 49 extra points for the week. Thats not good...its only Tuesday. I'm in need of a serious intervention. I've got to come to terms with the fact that this is a lifestyle change, not just a thing I'm going to do for awhile then go back to eating like crap and not exercising. I'm starting to lose hope of ever looking good again though. Blast. This process sucks.

Weigh In

I only lost .2 lbs this week. But its better than gaining. And I had a struggle Friday with my eating. So really...I'm happy for that. The weekend....also bad. So very bad. But this week...is a new week. I'm prepared with LOADS of fruit and veggies. And I have my meals planned out to a T. So this should be a pretty good week. I'm hoping anyway. Crossing fingers.

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So I had a very weird day yesterday. I was sooo stressed out with some things going on but I stayed within my 40 pts. However, I only ate 6 things. Hehe. Thats never good. Usually my entire tracker is full. But oh well.
I also REALLY didn't want to work out last night but I did. And the whole time I was trying to do that visualization thing where you visualize yourself where you want to be and it made the time go by much faster, and made me work harder. I'm going to use that practice in the future. I've decided I need to start adding in weights to my routines though. I don't want to have wierd tongue flaps and I think some weight training will help with that.
Anyway....here is crossing fingers for a better day today!

Frustation

I'm mad today. Very mad. But I'm trying not to let it affect my weight loss and I've done good so far at not emotionally eating. I had oatmeal for breakfast, a ham sandwich on 8 grain bread and 16 pringles (yes I counted a serving side out) with water to drink. So far so good. I also got off my butt and exercised last night. 1.3 miles with a peak incline of 7 (out of 10....really high) so I think I burned a fair amount of calories. And I ate well. So my goal today is to stay within my points and and exercise tonight. And possibly clean my house. But that will come later.

So....

I slacked last night again. I had a stupid divorced parenting class I needed to take to get my divorce finalized (yet my ex didn't feel the need to take it. bah) so that took me from directly after work (5:30) until 9:00. I was STARVING. So I stop at Taco Bell and get non-healthy junk. And I was extremely  worn out, so I went to bed as soon as I put the boys to bed.
But...there are no excuses. Tonight...I exercise. And I exercise hard. I need to make up for eating like crap for dinner last night and not exercising for the last 3 days straight.
Blast.
Gotta remember I'm trying to lose lots of weight.