Losing Motivation

I've come to a point where I'm losing my motivation. I truly am. I miss eating like crap. I miss not having to exercise. I want to be able to do all the things that encourage weight gain....without gaining weight. I'm frustrated. I don't know what to do. Take that back I do know what I need to do, I just don't want to do it. I've barely exercised this week and I've used 40 of my 49 extra points for the week. Thats not good...its only Tuesday. I'm in need of a serious intervention. I've got to come to terms with the fact that this is a lifestyle change, not just a thing I'm going to do for awhile then go back to eating like crap and not exercising. I'm starting to lose hope of ever looking good again though. Blast. This process sucks.