Picture is Worth a Thousand Words

I found out that I got accepted to the University here yesterday (woohoo!)....so my kiddos and I celebrated by going to see the GreenShow, which is a pre-show to the plays that run all summer as part of the Utah Shakespearean Festival. Its a fun show that we love attending. Anyway....after the show the boys always want to play in the fountain so away we went. I was trying to get a good picture of them (just them) and some random dude was all "You should be in that picture too!" I politely tried to say no thanks and I was ok...but he seriously was dead set that I would be in the dang picture. So I gave in. Now...I'm happy I did because It showed me that I'm lookin like a fatty bo batty still and need to get my butt moving. Now I just need to remember that when I'm feelin too lazy to run at night.......

I've been on a hiatus....

....and I apologize. Its been a rough time. My will and power to get this weight loss stuff going was shot. I had semi-given up for a minute. But now I'm back. Starting fresh....and taking it slow. Going day by day and hoping I can get things done. This weekend I didn't participate in the weigh in due to having a sleepover situation going on at my house and I couldn't get away. But I think it would've been bad anyway. This week.. I take things day by day. And hopefully I will get back into my groove. As a make up...here is a current picture of me. Even though I'm frustrated with my progress, I can see a difference. I still have the love handles but my upper torso is slimming out I think. Its good to see this for me. It shows I'm making progress. Here is to a good day today. And tomorrow....

Losing Motivation

I've come to a point where I'm losing my motivation. I truly am. I miss eating like crap. I miss not having to exercise. I want to be able to do all the things that encourage weight gain....without gaining weight. I'm frustrated. I don't know what to do. Take that back I do know what I need to do, I just don't want to do it. I've barely exercised this week and I've used 40 of my 49 extra points for the week. Thats not good...its only Tuesday. I'm in need of a serious intervention. I've got to come to terms with the fact that this is a lifestyle change, not just a thing I'm going to do for awhile then go back to eating like crap and not exercising. I'm starting to lose hope of ever looking good again though. Blast. This process sucks.

Weigh In

I only lost .2 lbs this week. But its better than gaining. And I had a struggle Friday with my eating. So really...I'm happy for that. The weekend....also bad. So very bad. But this week...is a new week. I'm prepared with LOADS of fruit and veggies. And I have my meals planned out to a T. So this should be a pretty good week. I'm hoping anyway. Crossing fingers.

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So I had a very weird day yesterday. I was sooo stressed out with some things going on but I stayed within my 40 pts. However, I only ate 6 things. Hehe. Thats never good. Usually my entire tracker is full. But oh well.
I also REALLY didn't want to work out last night but I did. And the whole time I was trying to do that visualization thing where you visualize yourself where you want to be and it made the time go by much faster, and made me work harder. I'm going to use that practice in the future. I've decided I need to start adding in weights to my routines though. I don't want to have wierd tongue flaps and I think some weight training will help with that.
Anyway....here is crossing fingers for a better day today!

Frustation

I'm mad today. Very mad. But I'm trying not to let it affect my weight loss and I've done good so far at not emotionally eating. I had oatmeal for breakfast, a ham sandwich on 8 grain bread and 16 pringles (yes I counted a serving side out) with water to drink. So far so good. I also got off my butt and exercised last night. 1.3 miles with a peak incline of 7 (out of 10....really high) so I think I burned a fair amount of calories. And I ate well. So my goal today is to stay within my points and and exercise tonight. And possibly clean my house. But that will come later.

So....

I slacked last night again. I had a stupid divorced parenting class I needed to take to get my divorce finalized (yet my ex didn't feel the need to take it. bah) so that took me from directly after work (5:30) until 9:00. I was STARVING. So I stop at Taco Bell and get non-healthy junk. And I was extremely  worn out, so I went to bed as soon as I put the boys to bed.
But...there are no excuses. Tonight...I exercise. And I exercise hard. I need to make up for eating like crap for dinner last night and not exercising for the last 3 days straight.
Blast.
Gotta remember I'm trying to lose lots of weight.

Weigh In!

This weigh in was AWESOME! I was down 3.6 lbs. I attribute it to running every night. I was sooo excited. Its a pretty good start to my "lets see how much weight I can lose (the healthy way) in one month" thing I've got going on. And I hit some pretty big landmarks. I got my first 20 lbs gone AND I dropped daily allotted points from 43 to 40 which isn't a ton but means I'm losing weight. AND I only have 5.8 lbs to go before I reach my first mini goal of 10% lost! I've also got my jogging set up to give me optimum results (hills and speed wise) and get my butt ready to run a 5k by the end of the month. It makes me happy.

This weekend, however, I didn't get much done. I was too sore. This is why.

Oh yeah....buddy my back and legs look the same way. It hurts to move. It hurts to walk...it hurts to sleep. It hurts to do anything. But thank you Mary Kay facial moisturizer with spf 15 that I had applied 5 hours previous to going to the lake because my face didn't get scorched. Just my body (which had like spf a million applied right before going).

But tonight...I commence my walk/jog methods of exercise and get my butt moving for a good weigh in this week.

The Week Ends...Weigh in

Its that wonderful day....the day they call Friday. Which means tomorrow is Saturday. Which means I get to see if I break my 20 lb mark or not. I sure hope so! I need it! I was looking back and the last 16 weeks and had I lost an average of 2 lbs a week...I'd be down 32 lbs by now. Makes me sick. I need to do better. I will do better. I HAVE to do better. And except for a treat here and there this week I think I did good. I've only gone 8 pts into my spares....and thats sayin something for me. I'm usually at least 20 into them by now. And I've exercised every night but Sunday and Wednesday, although Wednesday I moved furniture in my room so I think it burned at least 1 calorie. But alas....we shall see. Fingers crossed! I will check in with results on Monday.
Have a good weekend all!

YoCrunch Greek Non-Fat Yogurt

I am not a fan. And for being "non-fat" there was 1 gram fat in it. The proof is in the pudding. Or on the nutritional facts........

Nutrition Facts

Serving Size	1 cup
Amount Per Serving
Calories	180
Calories from Fat	10
% Daily Value*
Total Fat	1.0 g	2 %
Cholesterol	20 mg	7 %
Sodium	110 mg	5 %
Total Carbohydrate	31 g	10 %
Dietary Fiber	2 g	8 %
Sugars	20 g
Protein	11.0 g	22 %
* Percent Daily Values are based on a 2,000 calorie diet. Your daily values may be higher or lower depending on your calorie needs.

Yesterday...

....I ate a sweet roll. And I don't feel bad about it. Because it was in celebration of an EXTREMELY monumentous event in my life of which I won't go into detail. But don't worry....I had 16 points after dinner and all of those 16 points went to that sweet roll. As did the 1.5 miles I ran at a 2.5 incline so that I could burn more calories. I'll call it an even kill.

And I just got to say....I LOVE The Voice. When I get all skinny and such...I so wanna try out. I would right now, but I'd probably cry seeing myself on TV.

Update on 5/5/30 Challenge

Goal 1: Lose at least 5 lbs. I think I'm going to be on track. I'm having a good week so far.

Goal 2: Run a 5k. I ran 1.6 last night. I truly think that if I just bump up my mileage every week by just a half mile, I can accomplish this. So far so good.

Goal 3: No sweets. I've been good. Saturday, I had 2 bites of a donut then I remembered. And I stopped eating it! Sunday I had 0 sweet  things. Yesterday, I had one bite of my sons donut before I remembered. And I stopped eating it again! I call those a win since previously I would've just aten them anyway. Today....so far no sweets.

You know what....I just might make this happen. I'm kinda excited. :)

1.6 down

This is me...after running 1.6 miles. Woot woot. I always seem to think that its not a ton...but when I look back to February when I started my journey, I could barely walk 1 mile in 30 minutes. It was usually just over 30 minutes. Now...I'm JOGGING 1.6 miles. I'd say thats an improvement. So if nothing else...I know that my stamina and fitness level has improved. And the plus side....I jogged it while being inspired by watching Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Addition. Awesome show.

side note....man I REALLY hope I don't get the skin tongue thing.

Weigh in

I failed. I gained 1.2 lbs this weigh in. I knew I would...but I guess I was still hoping to just break even if nothing else. But really...I ate crappy all week and didn't exercise. What was I expecting?! But I have a new motivation. I realized I've been at this for 4 months now and have only lost less than 20 lbs. One of my friends has been going at it since January, and has lost 45 lbs. The biggest loser folks were at it 5 months and lost HUNDREDS of pounds. Granted they don't count as much because thats their whole life...they live and breath weight loss. But still!
But I have been doing good with my June challenge so far. I even resisted ice cream last night and went with fruit instead. So instead of just having the goal to lose 5 lbs...I'm making it a goal to see how much I can lose this month. To see the maximum amount I can lose (in a healthy way of course...no crash diets. Just WW).
Lets get on it. I'm ready.

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I'm a slight bit nervous for tomorrow. I'm pretty sure the weigh in is going to be bad. I was under my points last night...but we had a neighborhood BBQ and I ate a cookie. Blasted cookie! I think this no sweets thing is going to be tougher than I thought. It is the only sweet thing I had all day however, so thats a bit of an improvement. I think I'm going to be taking the no sweets thing day by day. So far today, candy dish on desk is still full and I haven't had anything sweet. So maybe I will adjust Goal 3 to say "conquer sugar cravings". I think thats good. And manageable.
I also didn't run last night. I'm slacking on all fronts. Stupid slacking. Today I'm eating really well...and tonight I plan on making up for lack of exercise. Hopefully thats enough to at least have me breaking even. I hope.
Until Monday.....I hope ya'll have a fantastic weekend!

Burns and 5k

Yesterday went well. Except that at work one of our disabled tenants had a birthday and insisted on sharing her cake. And insisted eating it with us. How do you say no to a disabled lady? I took the smallest piece I could possibly take. Then while cooking dinner, my 5 yr old burned his arm on the griddle. Like bad burn. I felt awful and iced it up, dosed him up on ibprofen and he said he would feel better if he got a treat (of course) so we got ice cream. Blasted ice cream. I was still within my points for the day, but that broke my no sweets goal. So I'm starting fresh today. Its a new day and I don't forsee any treat escapades in the future. I also ran 1.5 miles yesterday. It felt awesome. Except that I keep having pain in the balls of my feet. Wierd.

  

 This is me and my ww buddy after the 5k. I am having serious issues posting it...because it makes me realize how chubbo I am. But thats the point of all this...right?

Day 1 of 5/5/30 Challenge

Like my catchy condensed version of the challenge? I thought it was pretty awesome. I'm excited for my first day, and I've actually done really good. So to start with a bang, I obviously need to set some goals. Here goes it.

Goal 1:  Lose a minimum of 5 lbs in the next 30 days. I'm shooting for 8.2 lbs to accomplish my 10% goal with Weight Watchers. Of course I'd be happy with more than that, but I'll go with 8.2 lbs for now.

Goal 2: Run 5k before June 30. Whether this be an official race or me just able to run it...I don't care either way. As long as I can run it by the time June 30 comes around I'll be happy. Although there are a whole lot of 5ks that go on here during the summer, so if I find one thats near the end of June or the beginning of July, I'll do it.

Goal 3: NO MORE SWEETS! For one month, I am taking the pledge to obstain from eating sweet treats. This includes candy, cookies, candy bars, anything junk food thats sweet. And also includes my graham cracker and pb treat, not because its necessarily unhealthy, but because I eat so much it turns unhealthy. I know this is drastic, but I've GOT to get this sweet tooth thing out of my system, and I figure its like any addiction. Once your body goes without it for long enough, the cravings are a bit more managable.

I will be accomplishing this all by following my Weight Watchers plan and Couch to 5k (starting at week 5 since thats about where I'm at anyway). So far...so good as well. No sweets and not even a craving for some. I've been going healthy at it and I'm doing good. I even have a big bowl of tootsie rolls on my desk that I'm not even a little bit tempted to nibble at.

So jump on the bandwagon and comment about what your June goals are! Share some feedback! I love comments! :)

And of course...have a fanastic day. :)